i have problems
my current && worst one
is the one with my dad
i hate him
i hate him b/c he left me
i feel as if he abandoned me
he died a year ago the 5th of oct.
im so mad
i hate myself
&& i sometimes lash out at my mom<---not in a violent way
i just say things to her that i shouldnt
&& i act like i dont even like her
i mean....
like no one understands me
i have no one to talk to
my friends are here for me
but they dont know what im going through
they could never even imagine
my life is total hell
last night i realized what was wrong with me
i hate him
i love him
i need him
i miss him
why....why
i'll never know
&& i'll probably never be able to let go of this...
this...pain

-aleesha-